Different Indifferents

 I told her in my hoarse voice," I know right, I am not the Anna I knew too. The Anna I knew had a happy family . If you find her, then please tell her to come back because what I currently am is something that I myself don't like". She didn't say a word and she continued to stare at me but my eyes were still fixed on the TV. After sometime, she finally broke silence," Anna, I know you are brave but at times like these. It is brave to not act like brave ones and cry your feelings out". I was holding my tears in and I was trying very bad not to lose control again. I smiled at her," You know Lucia, sometimes it is hard for us and even impossible for us to hold back our feelings but now I have just realized it myself that the more I let my emotions out, the more weak I will become and that is something I don't want. I want to stand strong for my brother and for myself. Diego wants me to be that brave girl which my parents wanted me to become and I will...

 I gave them a smile. She said," I mean, I know but I thought you had feelings for him because you met him way before than I did, I think you two should have a good talk. I am going to call mom and I will tell her that I am staying with you today and you can't object". And before I could say anything she left the living room. And it was us two. It was awkward. I decided to break the silence and spoke first," So, how did that happen. I am rather excited to hear about it". He was staring at the floor," Honestly, I don't know how it started but as we spent some time together. We realized that we had a lot in common , so it just happened like that. Honestly speaking, I also thought that....that you'. And he could not complete his sentence. So I completed it on his behalf," So you thought that I had feelings for you. He gave me a slight nod. I smiled at him and said truthfully," You don't need to feel guilty about anything. I have always th...

 I was surprised to see that Lucia came with Finn and they had the same expression on their faces when they saw my condition. I gave them a way to come in and as soon as they got seated, Lucia could not hold herself any longer. She asked," What happened? Why are you like this? Your trip was supposed to be longer but you are already here? What happened to your leg?". Finn stopped her in the middle," Lucia, just how many more questions are you going to ask her. She can answer only one question at one time. Just let her speak".  I sighed," We were at the hotel and we had decided on going to the Westerland Beach after washing up. I didn't realize when did I fall asleep. But when I woke up, I saw everything was shaking. It was an earthquake. I rushed to my parents room but when I reached , the building collapsed and so did me and mom-dad". My voice was trembling and hot tears were flowing from my eyes. I continued trying not to break my voice," When I ...

 He nodded in disagreement and told me that they were still searching for the bodies and when they will find it , they would contact us . I gave him a slight nod and started looking outside again . For the rest of the time , we remained silent staring outside the window thinking what else was waiting for us . in the evening , we reached home . Everything seemed different there , without them everything seemed empty . As soon as we entered , all the memories of the time we all spent together came to my mind along with the accident .  I lied to my brother that I was going to wash up and go to bed early . He agreed and helped me to my room and told me that he was going to be in his room , so if I needed ant help I could call him . I gave him a slight nod and he left closing the door . After that , I went to use the restroom and washed up my face . I saw huge dark circles around my eyes and my skin was a shit by now . I ignored it and washed my face a couple of more times . Then I...

I noticed that his cheeks were red and dry from crying but his face was now calm and silent. I looked at him for a while , at those closed eyes and those lips which always smiled whenever we were together and he teased me . He was now the only person I have in my life . He was,  my brother Diego was my everything now and I could not bear to lose him . While I was thinking all this , my eyes were filled with tears again but I didn't let them come out . Right at that moment,  Diego moved his head a little , it must hurt a lot to stay like that for a long time . Not long after that , he opened his eyes and saw me staring at him . I tried to avoid eye contact in order not to show my tears . But , he noticed them right away . We stayed silent for a while as both of us were not in a condition to speak anything . I decided to break the silence and said ," It was my fault . All this . I fell asleep and didn't wake up past the time we were supposed to go . If I had woke up before t...