What else is waiting for us .....

I noticed that his cheeks were red and dry from crying but his face was now calm and silent. I looked at him for a while , at those closed eyes and those lips which always smiled whenever we were together and he teased me . He was now the only person I have in my life . He was,  my brother Diego was my everything now and I could not bear to lose him . While I was thinking all this , my eyes were filled with tears again but I didn't let them come out . Right at that moment,  Diego moved his head a little , it must hurt a lot to stay like that for a long time . Not long after that , he opened his eyes and saw me staring at him . I tried to avoid eye contact in order not to show my tears . But , he noticed them right away . We stayed silent for a while as both of us were not in a condition to speak anything . I decided to break the silence and said ," It was my fault . All this . I fell asleep and didn't wake up past the time we were supposed to go . If I had woke up before the time then we would be on the beach ,all happy and.........and safe ".

" if you are going to blame yourself like that , then I won't talk to you anymore . If I had stopped you , then also this fucking disaster would have happened sweeping our parents away from us . So , if you are going to be like this then I won't talk to you . Instead of cursing yourself for the rest of your life why not make our parents proud ".

Normally , those kind of words would seem to be cringy , but given our conditions,  I could feel a strange feeling inside me as if something was burning inside. I gave him a slight nod I knew that was not enough but I didn't know what to say and also he didn't response to my silence . The rest of the night went just like that half crying and half sleeping . The next morning I was getting discharged and the doctor told us that I could come back in a month to remove the plaster . At 9 in the morning , we left the hospital and we took the cab to our house . Not until then I realized that Teo days had already passed . I sitting at the back with Diego.  I looked outside , it was a bright day with slight wind . The trees were green and the weather was great just like that day when I lost them . Staring outside , I asked my brother , " Did they find mom and dad .....I mean did they find their cor....co...". I could not complete my sentence but he understood what I meant . He nodded in disagreement and told me that they were still searching for the bodies and when they will find them , they will contact us . I gave him a nod . The rest of the trip , we spent remaining silent staring outside the window thinking what else was waiting for us..............