Different Indifferents

 That day, after many months I was able to sleep without thinking about any tomorrow. I was filled with excitement, nervousness, thrill and above all missing them. The next morning, when I got up Diego had already gone to work he left me a sticky note saying so. Since, I had nothing to do. I called up Paige and Brian to come over and binge watch something. Paige said that she was out with her parents so it was just me and Brian. We decided to watch a horror mini series. It was honestly good and since I had a company so I was not scared at all. In fact, I enjoyed it but on the other hand Brian's reaction were priceless. He was so scared whenever the ghost would pop out and then he would pretend that he was not scared. I secretly clicked a couple of pictures of him while him being scared to make fun of him later on. As we were reaching towards the end it was getting boring because Brian was not giving as much reactions as he was before. I started to get sleepy and I didn't realiz...

 I went back to my seat an asked them how was it and they said I killed it. I hope so too. After the graduation ceremony, we clicked pictures. I was happy to see all of them happy. The feeling was surreal. After that we went home and all of us went out for dinner. Me, Diego, Petra, Paige, Brian and Petra's parents. Brian's parents could not make it to the dinner because her mother was extremely tired from the event and her father didn't want to leave her alone. After spending the one of the best days of my life, we were walking back. I went to Diego and told him slowly, "Can I visit mom and Dad tomorrow?" "Of course you can, but I will..." I cut him off "No. This time I want to be alone and trust me I will be fine" I looked at him with puppy eyes and he had to give up. After that he went to drop Petra and me and Brian were on our way home. "Can you believe we are going to be uni students in a next couple of weeks" I asked him still no...

 Life was taking a new turn and I hope it was a positive one. I've had enough roller coaster rides in my life. I don't crave for them anymore.  TIME SKIP TO GRADUATION DAY I was nervous as hell. I was going to be felicitated and not only that I was supposed to give a speech. Me, Brian and Paige, we all got the admission in the university which we aimed for and it was same. Finally, the hustle came to an end, students were seated on the chairs, the parents and families were sitting behind the students. I was sitting in between of Brian and Paige. I was fiddling with my fingers in nervousness and I felt a hand on mine to stop it. It was Brian and he squeezed my hand slightly to assure me that it was fine. My name was finally called, I got up and went up the stage. I got my certificate and I was given the mic. I stood beside the Podium and took a deep breath. "Well, hi". I chuckled to myself as my nervousness went away. I put on a smile and continued, "That was terr...

 He took me in his embrace while I was a crying mess. After crying my eyes out, we broke the hug. I looked at him, "I am sorry", "For what?" he asked confused I pointed at his shirt which was now wet because of my tears. He chuckled. "And I was worried as if it was something serious" I smiled at his reply. He smiled back and continued, "Anna, when my mom was having her appendicitis operation. I worried sick even though doctors said it was not something serious. So, I can't even understand what pain you are going through. I am sorry Anna that you had to go through all this but I am so happy that I met you" "CHEESY" I shouted and chuckled. He acted to be offended and we talked for a while before heading home. I told him that I was planning to visit my parents the next day. He insisted on coming with me but I refused that I wanted to be alone this time. He understood. THE NEXT DAY I was on my way to visit my parents. I told Diego and h...

 I also told Diego that I approved of them and he was more than happy. And after all that mess, I told him that I was the student of the year and the first one as a transfer student. We dined out that night because he wanted to celebrate it. And I took Brian with me, Paige was a little busy. I did not want to be the third wheel so I talked with Brian. After dinner, we were on our way back. Diego said that we could go home, he would come after dropping Petra at her home. I felt a sudden urge to go to the park, so I told Brian and here we were in the park. We were talking about things, I told him about what happened in the afternoon and we sat down on the bench. I was looking at the starry sky with a smile thinking about mom and dad. Brian broke the silence, "Why are so fond of the starry sky. It is not like you are seeing it for the first time". My smile widened thinking about the answer but I still did not look at me. While looking at the sky I replied to him, "Brian, yo...

 I decided to surprise Diego. So, instead of knocking I opened the door with keys and I saw Diego in the living room watching TV and giggling but he was not alone. A girl was sitting more like cuddling with him. I was beyond shocked not that I was judging or something but I was surprised. I went there and the moment Diego noticed me his face changed. I decided to go along the play since I was loving his scared expressions. I raised my brows and crossed my arms holding a poker face pretending to be waiting for an explanation. They both got up and Diego was really nervous because it was not really his thing to confess to something which is why I was enjoying it more. He then suddenly blurted that they were dating. I wanted to laugh at his outburst so bad but I controlled myself and continued to hold a poker face. I told him in a serious tone, "I want to talk to her. In a little private". He reluctantly agreed and me and his girlfriend were now in my room. As soon as I ensured t...

 Everything was finally getting on track or so I thought. It was my first final exam and I was freaking out. Although Diego noticed it that I was nervous, but I just shrugged it off saying it was not something to worry about ( I told Diego about my condition before ). I was on my way to school with Brian and he could also sense that something was off. The moment we saw the school, I started hyperventilating and I knew I was having another attack. Brian knew how to calm me down. He wrapped his arms around me and started making circles on my back telling me to take deep breaths and close my eyes. He told me to fill up my mind with all the happy moments. I did the same and after a few more minutes my breathing was back to normal and by that time Paige also reached there and she understood the whole situation. We did our exams and it was great, so were the exams afterwards.  We were in the school celebrating the last day of school life or you can say a farewell. I got the news tha...

 I never knew that she had gone through that much. But now that she told me, I knew that we were best buddies because we understood each other more than anyone else did as we went through the same. I think I found a friend whom I could rely on without thinking twice. That night, she slept over at my house and we talked whole night. We opened ourselves completely and we ended up deciding that I was going to see a psychatrist and would tell Diego when the time comes. The next day, we went to school together only to see a worried looking Brian waiting for us. We did not tell him the truth yet and told him that it was nothing but a slight panic disorder. He didn't seem to believe it but he agreed nevertheless.  I started seeing a psychologist and getting treatment. 10 Months Later We were gonna give our finals in a couple of weeks along with the college entrance examination. I still had sessions with the psychologist although they had been reduced a lot. Around 3 months after that...

 I have people to care for in this world and there are people in this world too who take care of me.  I looked at Paige, she was looking at me. I gave her my biggest smile and nodded, I don't know how many times. We talked for a while about random things while enjoying the night view. And now we were on our way back to home. I decided to break the silence, " Paige, you know why was I afraid to tell anyone?" She looked at me to continue. " I thought you would judge me if I showed you my dark side. I was afraid that you would not treat me the same. I thought you either hate me or pity me and I didn't want any of that. During this last month, I even had thoughts of ending myself but then came the face of Diego in front of me. I didn't want him to suffer through this alone and I wanted to see him happy. I wanted to make him happy so I backed off".  I completed and looked at Paige waiting for her response. She didn't look at me and replied while walking a...