I think I found the one

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 I have people to care for in this world and there are people in this world too who take care of me. 

I looked at Paige, she was looking at me. I gave her my biggest smile and nodded, I don't know how many times. We talked for a while about random things while enjoying the night view.

And now we were on our way back to home. I decided to break the silence,

" Paige, you know why was I afraid to tell anyone?" She looked at me to continue.

" I thought you would judge me if I showed you my dark side. I was afraid that you would not treat me the same. I thought you either hate me or pity me and I didn't want any of that. During this last month, I even had thoughts of ending myself but then came the face of Diego in front of me. I didn't want him to suffer through this alone and I wanted to see him happy. I wanted to make him happy so I backed off". 

I completed and looked at Paige waiting for her response. She didn't look at me and replied while walking ahead,

" 3 years back, I was going through depression and no one knew about it. I started cutting myself using knifes in the areas that were not visible. It caused pain but it somehow tempted to continue. And there was this one day, when I was cutting one of my body part and my cousin sister saw it. We were really close so she didn't tell mom and dad but she told me that I was very wrong in doing that. I still have those thoughts. And now that I think of it, I was not as brave as you because you realized where you were wrong by yourself and I needed someone to make me realize".

I never expected her to have something like this. But, now that we shared ourselves I knew we were best buddies and we understood each other more than anyone because we went through it. I think I found a friend.

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