Not alone

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 Everything was finally getting on track or so I thought.

It was my first final exam and I was freaking out. Although Diego noticed it that I was nervous, but I just shrugged it off saying it was not something to worry about ( I told Diego about my condition before ).

I was on my way to school with Brian and he could also sense that something was off. The moment we saw the school, I started hyperventilating and I knew I was having another attack. Brian knew how to calm me down.

He wrapped his arms around me and started making circles on my back telling me to take deep breaths and close my eyes. He told me to fill up my mind with all the happy moments. I did the same and after a few more minutes my breathing was back to normal and by that time Paige also reached there and she understood the whole situation.

We did our exams and it was great, so were the exams afterwards. 

We were in the school celebrating the last day of school life or you can say a farewell. I got the news that I was gonna be felicitated as the best student of the year, I was thrilled because I was the first transfer student to get that title. 

We were celebrating in the school, dancing and jumping around. I was allowed to go home early.

I decided to surprise Diego, so instead of knocking, I opened the door with keys. I entered and saw Diego in the living room watching TV giggling but he was not alone.

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