Different Indifferents

 She suddenly wrapped her arms around me and rubbed my back while saying, "Idiot". I knew what she meant by that so I just cried my heart out and she was patient enough until I calmed down. When I was fine, I cleaned up my face and I was taking deep breaths hoping to hear a lecture from her. Instead of that she just said, "Wanna go to the hill. We will do a little bit hiking". I was confused but I eventually agreed to her with a nod. Her face lit up and we changed. I lent her some of my clothes and we went to the hill. We were climbing and talking about random stuffs that for a second I forgot what had happened earlier that day. We reached the top and we sat down because it was nearly the time for the sunset. We were looking at the sunset and Paige said still looking at the sunset, "Anna, you know there was this story that I heard" I hummed for her to continue and she continued, "The sun was very sad. It was sitting by itself crying. Then another star...

 We reached my home and we were now in my bedroom sitting on the bed facing each other. She was looking at me intently hoping to get an answer. I sighed, "I know what's coming?" "Then, better be quick. I got several things figured out already but I still want to know everything" she demanded in a serious tone. I had no choice but to tell her. So I started, "Paige, before telling I am asking for 2 things from you. First, you won't judge me and second if you want to judge me then do it after I complete myself" she nodded and I continued, "Well, I have BPD, borderline personality disorder. Basically, I have a lot of mood swings, in an intense manner which can lead to thoughts of self harm and bad relationships with friends and family. I exactly don't know when it started but the last memory of it is when I lost my grandfather. I was on a trip with my family and half way through it we got a call that he passed away. All the way back, everyone ...

 I knew I was going to have a Panic attack and my episode had already triggered. And it was really bad when they both happened at the same time. I could not show it to them, without saying anything I got up and stormed out without knowing where my feet were taking me. My mind was full of voices of my family, of the scene when I lost them. I was struggling to breathe and my legs were shaking helplessly but I was still running like crazy. When my feet stopped, I was already out of school building, in the middle of the road. My mind was a mess, I was looking around like a lunatic but those voices were all coming at once. I heard a loud horn coming from my right. I looked there and saw a truck coming my way. I was too confused to do anything. My mind was not working and my legs also stopped working. I stood there staring at the truck whose driver was honking. Just at the moment, when I was about to get hit. I was thrown to the side of the road with someone. I was now back to my senses,...

 Well, that was weird since he didn't even talk to me properly when we first met and now he was directly saying that we were friends. And now that I think of it, I really needed friends so I just gave him a slight nod and went inside. I jumped on my bed and went to dreamland only to be waken up by my alarm next morning. It was a pretty fine day. I got up, did my routine, went into the kitchen only to find Diego asleep on the couch. He seemed to have arrived pretty late so I did not disturb him. I got my breakfast and went out. Half way through, Brian approached me and tapped on my shoulder. I wished him good morning keeping a poker face. I wondered, why didn't I smile but then I had no right to smile. We reached school and I found Paige. She came up to me and we went in the class together. The teacher began her class and after a few classes, it was lunch time and me and Paige did our lunch together. As we talked, I got to know that we had almost everything in same. By same, I m...