People who care and people to care

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 She suddenly wrapped her arms around me and rubbed my back while saying,

"Idiot". I knew what she meant by that so I just cried my heart out and she was patient enough until I calmed down. When I was fine, I cleaned up my face and I was taking deep breaths hoping to hear a lecture from her.

Instead of that she just said, "Wanna go to the hill. We will do a little bit hiking". I was confused but I eventually agreed to her with a nod. Her face lit up and we changed. I lent her some of my clothes and we went to the hill.

We were climbing and talking about random stuffs that for a second I forgot what had happened earlier that day. We reached the top and we sat down because it was nearly the time for the sunset.

We were looking at the sunset and Paige said still looking at the sunset,

"Anna, you know there was this story that I heard" I hummed for her to continue and she continued,

"The sun was very sad. It was sitting by itself crying. Then another star came to him to ask what happened since sun is also a star. The sun said that it can't have any friends and even if he tries to then he might burn them with their heat. And he is not worthy to live since it brings destruction. The star was listening this patiently and after the sun finished, the star smiled and said that he was once like the sun thinking that he can bring the bad only.

But slowly he realized that he was not doing the destruction because if the sun would try to see himself from the life on earth. Then, he is the source of life and happiness in people. And in some areas people even worship the sun because he is one of the causes of life and happiness.

When star completed the sun realized that he was wrong, that he was not harming others but he was helping a lot more to survive" Paige finished and looked at me,

"Do you understand now, you are not the cause that your parents are not with you right now. Instead of that, you are the cause of happiness for your brother. Can you think how would he live if you also left us. Can you think how would I find a true friend if you would have left. Anna, you are the source of OUR happiness" She was looking at me with a smile on her face.

I have people to care for in this world and I have people who care for me in this world.

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