My world - Upside down

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The half building opposite to us was collapsing and the building at our side was about to collapse because the cracks were getting deeper . I ran to their room , the moment I opened it and I froze . My parents,  they were injured and were stuck under a huge part of ceiling which had fallen over them . Tears shed from my eyes and I ran towards them but they stopped me in the middle and told me to go and save myself first . I neglected right away and then they said something to me but I could not bother that at that time . I started to go towards them but as I took a step the room collapsed and so did I.  When I got conscious , I don't know how was I alive but  was madly searching mom and dad . Everyone who was alive there was searching for people they lost . I was searching and searching and searching and I finally saw a hand with a bracelet on that , it was my mother's and my dad's glasses with beside it , broken.  I couldn't hold myself , I fell and I cried . I cried to God,  " Please God,  please , you can me but please return them back to me . Why did you have to take them away from me . Please return them to me . Return my mom and dad ." I held my mom's hand all shaking , all terrified . I held her tightly . I shook her and put her hand on my eyes , I cried even more. I squeezed her hand even more and told her all sobbing , " Mom, I am a very bad daughter . You told me to meet at 8 but I fell asleep. Had I not fallen asleep we could have gone to the beach . We would be safe . You .....you would not....le....leave me like this.....please mom....please dad ....don't......don't do this.....please scold me no .' I took her hand and started to slap myself with that saying , 
" You can even slap me , scold me .....but please come back ...please come back." I didn't realize when did I faint while crying and I don't remember anything after that. When I opened my eyes .........it was all crowded and all hustle -bustle . My brother was standing there trying to stop his tears from falling . His red eyes told it all.............

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