If I fail to plan , then I have planned to fail .

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This was all going on in my small mind at the same time . I know for a high schooler, it is too much but I could not help it . Just at that moment a thought popped up in my mind . I didn't know where it come from but it just did . The thought was somewhat related to my career . I thought that there was one thing I was sure of , which was that pen and paper were my strengths and it didn't matter if I used them to study or draw or write poems . So , why not use this strength for your future because this was one thing I never got fed up of . I went home since all of these thoughts were popping inside of me in the school . I turned on my laptop and started scrolling for the courses I could do with my strengths and I came up with two,  one was law and the other was journalism . This much research was enough for today,  so I just shut down my laptop and went outside to help mom . She was in the kitchen doing the dishes.  I joined her and I decided to casually ask her about these courses without letting her know what was in my mind . I asked her , " Mumma , what do you think about law . I mean it is a pretty popular field isn't it . My friend is thinking of joining it ( which was true  but not a friend but a classmate ) " . She didn't look at me and said,  " Listen dear , I am not against any field but law is something which I think is more filled with corruption since various high authorities are joined with law and politics . This is my opinion because every parent needs their children to be safe and for me , law is not safe ." I nodded and said,  " Okayyyy , now what about  journalism?" She still had no expressions on her face and said , " Journalism holds the same position for me as the law does . No offense , but journalists are people who are scolded and they hear so and so on various debates ". I was kind of disappointed with both the answers because no field is perfect and since I was biased towards journalism so I was more sad . My mom asked me , " Why were you asking about this all of the sudden?" I gathered all my courage and said , " Mom , the thing is ......that......that I was thinking of .......I was thinking to pursue my career towards jou......journal......journalism ". Her hands stopped and she looked at me ...................

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