The real good is when you don't realize how good you are inside

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I was irritated at myself now , just why did I burst upon Finn even when he had done nothing wrong . I was talking to myself loudly and scolding myself since there was only me or maybe not . Just that moment , I realized that it was not only me there on the rooftop . Finn was standing there.  I saw him and I was pale , I didn't know how to face him . I came to me and was about to say something but I stopped him and said , " Finn , I really don't know what you are going to say but I am really sorry for happened before , I was not in my right mind . I shouldn't have been mad at you because you did nothing wrong . I don't know what you are thinking about me but whatever you are thinking is right. I am stupid , I am crazy , I am immature ". While I was blabbering all this , he stopped me in the middle and said , " Whoa, whoa, whoa , why are you being so nervous . I am not mad at all . You must've had your own reasons and I stepped in the middle . Do you know why I became friends with you be abuse you are easy ". I stared at him and he said , " Don't get me wrong , my easy here means that you are not like others.  You are honest , you have a helping nature , although you have a short temper but you never show that,  even if you are in a bad mood about anything you still keep a big smile on your face . May I know why do you put such a big smile on your face ?" . I said , " I think , if I am in a bad mood and I will express it then the person with me will feel pity for me or will also go I  a bad mood which won't help me. So , if I can prevent myself from ruining other person's day then what's wrong with it....."   He stopped me in the middle , " see, this where you are good . You can let yourself be in a bad mood but you won't share it . This is why , you busted at me before because you have been keeping it in for a long time . Although I don't know what it is but you should share it someone , I am not saying it should be me but anyone you trust ". I gave him a nod , he right and I underestimated myself a lot . He asked me , " What's your birth date ? " . I was like that was out of the blue . I said , "  August , 22 . Why?". He said " It's nothing but to change the topic . You feel down so why not change the topic and have a friend's chat if you are comfortable". I said,  " That's great , okay that's a good idea . Now yell me you birth date ?" . He said " August 24 ....." . I was like 24 its just two days after mine . I smiled because I didn't expect our birthdays to be so close . Then,  we had a good chat , we chatted about teachers , school , our families and I felt better ...............

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