Owed Apologies

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The person in front of me said , " Hello , I am Finn Wagner". I heard the name and I uplifted my face and it was the same cold boy . I froze for a moment and then I calmed myself down and I said , " hello , I am Anna udolph ". Then , I continued to eat my lunch thinking how to start .
And then I finally buckled up my courage and said ," So , have you completed the novel you borrowed that day in the library " . My face was serious and his face blackened . Then , he just said ," No ". Yes this is what he said just no . By now I was going to burst from anger but I just controlled myself and that , " Okay , if you have not completed it then I think you should please hurry up a bit Mr. Wagner " . And saying that I stood up and left the canteen . I went to the class waiting for the next teacher to come . But I was very much angry thinking that he remembered and still instead of apologizing what he said was just a no. The teacher entered the class and so did him . I tried concentrate on the class . It was organic chemistry , and we studying some nomenclature and the teacher asked me a question and I answered it correctly.  It was now the turn for next question and no one knew the answer including me but one . Mr. Wagner raised his hand and he told the answer and that too correctly. The teacher was as impressed as I was surprised. Finally the day ended , indeed that day made me a lot angry.  The next day Lucia was present and told her what happened,  she told me to ignore him because she knew after that lunch break I was pissed off. The school began and the teacher told us about a new science project which was to be done in teams of three students. These students were ofcourse decided by the teachers but we could get the names by the end of class.  The class ended well and I was curious to know the teams as others were . Finally the teacher pasted the page containing name of the teams on the notice board . I was happy and sad . I was teamed up with Lucia and Finn Wagner  . Lucia was watching me nervously because she knew I hated Finn. But what we could do was to complete the project together and tolerate him.........

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