I guess I am insolent enough not to change my mind

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I could not find anything to please my stomach . So , I thought it would be better it I could spend the rest of the time gathering courage in me for spending the rest of the night there , at that weird place . I was frightened,  thinking what would happen , to me and my mother who would be searching for me . My episode was also getting worse and other than that y mind froze . Everything was going blacker and blacker . Soon after that , I found my eyes closing and don't remember anything after that . When I opened my eyes , I was in the school infirmary . There was principal and beside him was my mother waiting eagerly for me to talk . It was bright out there , maybe day . I asked them , what time was it . They told me it was 9 in the morning.  They all started to search the school at 6 in the morning and they found her unconscious in the washroom . Then the principal asked , " What happened Ms. Udolph,  why did you go to that washroom because it was closed for a month  . And how did you get stuck in there , was there any naughty student who did this ?" . I thought that it was not one but four naughty students who were responsible.  I then said , " Sir , I was not aware that washroom was closed and I don't know when I entered it , the door got locked and it did not open . I guess it needed repair too and when I asked for help there was no one and I had no phone ". He nodded and told me to take care and then he left me and mom alone. She sat at the stool near me , " Sweetheart , did you know how worried I was about you . Thank God you are fine . Get a good rest , your friends are waiting for you talk to them first ". And saying this with a slight smile on her face , she left the room . After that , Lucia and Finn came there and stood there in front of me . They both gave me slight smile and then Finn asked me , " So , how was the little adventure you always hoped for . I guess you will have to change your mind to have that boring life like everyone Ms. Udolph ". I laughed,  " I guess I a  insolent enough that I still won't give up on my idea ". Lucia was looking at both of us confused and she finally could not stop her curiosity any further and asked , " What are you guys talking about and as far as I know that I am not invisible " . Me and Finn glanced at each other and then we broke into laughter .Lucia was standing there , still confused ......

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