A meeting with bullies

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That week I started revising , making last minute notes of all subjects for the revision on the day offs before each exam . Finally , the day came,  I was a mixture again . Calm outside and nervous inside . We were given 2 hours to do it and the most terrifying part was that my very first exam was of physics with which I had kind of special bond of fear . I went to school , when I saw all the students . They were like , they opened their books in front of the examination hall and started revising it so loud as if they were going to a protest and they were preparing their slogans before that . The bell rang . We all went in our hall . The question papers were distributed and I read that very first question and I was startled . Because that very question was which I revised just before packing my bags . I started doing it and it was fine , not very good actually but yeah , fine . We all came out of the examination hall and everyone started discussing how there exam went with their friends . I also started to search Lucia since she had her exam in the next hall . I went to her hall to search her and there I found some really annoying girls from different section . It was not that I hated them but they just bodyshamed me the moment they saw me , so I used to ignore them . But , when I got into that hall they covered me . I don't know on whom they were angry but all that anger was shed on me in their so called sarcastic way . They were a group of four girls , Suzy, Murph, Alexa and Kathy. One of them said , " Hey there , Balloon how's it going ?". She didn't even stop and the same moment the another one jumped into the conversation since she could not help her , " I'm sure the examiner would have arranged an extra bench for you , because a single bench won't be able to ha due your weight jumbo ". I replied politely , " I am good , but I am really sorry to disappoint you but the examiner didn't have to give me an extra bench since it was strong enough , I don't know about yours . So if you please excuse me , let me find my friend ". Kathy said immediately , " Oh why not , you and your that very friend Lucia . What a bullshit you are . She just ran into the bathroom around the corner of wing A ". I said , " Then , I'll just take my leave . Thank you ( for wasting my time ) ". I came out of the trying to keep my anger down . I was new to that building so I didn't know much about it . I asked someone about the wing A and reached the bathroom . I went in and I felt weird because it was unlike other washrooms.  Also , Lucia was not there I guess..........

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